Goodbye

Today, I don't think I have cried as much, ever, in my life.

It is truly horrid.

When you finally realise that she's never coming back.

Going to my Nana's funeral was a heart-breaking moment and I have never felt anything like it in my whole life. I could not stop crying the whole way through the service, every little bit reminder me of her. The hymns, the poem, the eulogy and the worst part, was that her coffin was right there, next to me.

We had to bury her during the process. This was my first ever funeral so I had no idea what you had to do so when I saw it, I broke.

At this point, I realised that she and finally gone, and is never coming back. And I don't want that.

Geese, I am crying now!

I just want her back, you know. She made so many memories in my head which I will treasure forever and her affection towards me I will never forget. She was amazing and I love her.

The thing that I think made it that bit better than it is, is the fact that I actually got to say goodbye. Geese, that day was hard. She was ill, really ill, and she didn't know it. It was a brain injury and she thought she was going home soon. It was awful.

Stop crying!

At the end, I just said goodbye, kissed her and left and fell into a puddle of tears. I didn't cry in front of her because she thought there was nothing wrong, when in fact, she wasn't going to be there much longer.

It still hurts now, like a heartache. I have never felt this way before.

But as I am writing about my beloved Nana, I just want to say something to her, if you guys don't mind.

I have loved you for 1000 years, and I will love you for 1000 more. Goodbye x

In loving memory of my dearest Nana, I dedicate this blog to her.

Thank you

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Turn Back Time

I told my friends about the guy.

If you don't know what I am talking about read my previous blog Long Distance.

So I texted my friends saying can we talk at school, need to speak to you. One of the said, just tell me. I thought that it was a too longer story to tell over text, I mean, my last blog was a flipping essay! So I waited until I went back to school to tell them.

Because I met him right at the start of a 2 week break so couldn't see my friends until then.

Anyway, I sort of told them wrong. You know you have 2 ways of telling people information. 1 way is to tell them the brief and 2 is to tell them the whole story saga. I did the first one and they thought I was as weird as a flying elephant.

Yeah

They first thought I was weird because I met him on an online 'baby' game (I put baby in inverted commas because if it was a baby game, would I be playing it? No) and that was lame. As well as that, they thought he was just this weird guy who wasn't cute because I didn't tell them the right way. I didn't tell them about any of out cute stories or convocations.

Only if I could turn back time to tell them again.

I finally got through to 1 of them (sort of) and...yeah. They just think I am weird and stupid because I like this guy from America who I meant on a 'baby' game. They sort of laugh at me. I don't want them telling other people either because I told them because they are my friends and I trust them with this huge information about this guy.

But he is awesome. Really.

I will probably say in a weeks time that I haven't spoken to him so be warned!

But what I figured out was, distance means nothing if someone means something important because even though it can't, it should be because every good thing, starts out a little scary, doesn't it?

I was so proud when I made that little quote up, let me just say!

Hope you are all well.

Follow, comment, all of that.

See ya!

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Long Distance

My heart feels broken and feel like I am going to cry.

But I am still filled with powerful love and happiness from him.

I can't bring myself to regret ever meeting him and all the time we have talked to each other, because it has been such a laugh.

But it is very hard to think of a solution of which we could be together.

A couple of weeks ago, I was on an online gaming site when I met this guy. We were these weird characters so didn't know who each other were. We talked and he made me laugh. He always puts a smile on my face. He added me as a friend on the game and then we started going on the same games as each other when we were both online.

You guys all know I am 13 (14 in a month and a bit), I found out this guy is 15, which is awesome. Really, older guys are cute. And he was taking cute to a new level, flirting with me and making funny jokes. We talked to each other like we have know each other for ages, and he said so himself.

One night, we were on together and it was 12:30 for me so I said we better be getting off to bed. He said, really, it is well earlier. I was confused and said its 12:30. He just said were do you live and I said England and when I read his reply my heart sank.

He is from America.

I worked out that it was a 4 hour difference so it would have been 8:30 for him.

At this point, I liked him a bit. He was funny and cute, I just wanted to see him for him.

Another day, we were on a game together and I just came out with, do you have Instagram?  He didn't because he forgot his password. He asked me if  had twitter and I said no and then we exchanged our names for Facebook. before this, we didn't know each others names, or what each other looked like.

Please, please, please forgive me if I am offensive in anyway to you in the next little bit. I am not being racist. If you think I am I have 2 coloured friend and 1 ginger, and those are my closes 3 friends.

I am one of those people who worry about everything. A little look from a strange guy across the road makes me feel really nervous.

When I looked up his Facebook profile, I got the most worried feeling ever in my life.

He was coloured.

I don't know why it scared me it just did and if I offend you guys in anyway I am so sorry, I love you!

All I was thinking was, he is a black 15 year old from America. Whenever I imagined my first boyfriend (which I rarely imagined by the way, I don't have an imaginary boyfriend) he was always my race so, I think that is what scared me a bit. It being different to how I imagined.

Just a reminder I love you guys and I am not racist what so ever. Please believe me. This is just so I can get this off my chest.

I spent a couple of days not going on with him and then when I did, the moment he said hi I smiled and though, geese, how could I even be remotely afraid of him. He is so sweet.

And he is.

For about a week he was flirting with me. We were pretending to be the other gender to each other, he made some inside joke (which I will not share with you because they are too personal) and he was being so protective over me in games which you could die in (we are like Lego characters let me just say!). He is so cute and I really like him.

Now the reason my heart feels like it is broken and I want to cry is because of what happened today.

We were just talking on the game when he just said to me, Bebe, how would you describe our relationship/friendship?

I was stuck because I wanted to preserve my feelings but I wanted to tell him how I feel. So I just went

I don't know, depends on who's view it is coming from. What about you?

This is what hurt me.

I think we are friends who flirt with each other a lot.

...I died. He thinks we are just friends? Is the feeling I have only felt by me?

Then he said, But neither of us has made it clear if me want to date each other. It would be easier if we did. How do you feel about me?

I knew I had to say something and the only option was the truth. I like him loads, I do and he is so sweet, I just needed to tell him something else as well. I said

I like you, I do, I just think it would be complicated if we did.

He knew what I meant. I knew it would be complicated if we did date because if we did, it would be a huge long distance relationship and what happens if I find another guy I really like closer to me? Our relationship will be stopping me.

He agreed with what I said and just said, lets see what the future has in store for us.

Omg, so cute

I said, Yea, I would love that xx

I told him I had to go and left, feeling like if I didn't, I would end up hearing something else I didn't want to hear.

Life is so not fair. When I finally decide to like a guy, he lives in another continent, let alone country! The race thing doesn't bother me any more, I just want him to be here.

So I am not asking for much.

Guys, I need your advice. What shall I do? Shall we just stay friends or shall I tell him how I feel?

I need your responses because I have no idea what to do apart from act like today convocation never happened.

And, I am going to speak to him again, so don't say just forget him.

Love you guys loads, sorry I haven't posted in a while, had drama. Sorry if I offended you in this post.

Just sorry.

Ok, I am going to shut up now.

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Just...What has happened

Nothing exciting has happened to me lately

That's why I haven't posted in like...weeks

So lets start with an apology

Sorry

Now, lets talk about Easter.

Easter I actually about Jesus and the cross but, we all look forward to the eggs don't we? Which got me thinking...

Why are the Easter eggs eggs?

Why aren't the like crosses or something. I have probably been told this before but I have forgot (as you could probably guess). Because if Easter is all about Jesus and stuff, then eggs aren't exactly  way to remember that, is it?

I have friends (obviously!) and we did this secret Easter bunny thing, like secret Santa, but with the Easter bunny. It didn't work because we told everyone who we got so we got them an egg they liked.

Anyway, there was 6 of us but 1 person didn't want to do it so it was just 5. And in our little group, there are 3 closer people, I was one of them. 1 of our group of 6 we don't like and most people know that. 3 f u closer peeps did a secret Easter bunny with bunnies instead of eggs. It sort of worked.

Anyway, 1 person in our 3 had the bunny (lets call her H) and was eating it (this was after we had given them to each other). She was walking home with the 1 person we don't like. You get it? The 1 person we don't like (lets call her F for now) said to H, where did you get that from, and she said, a friend in the older year. F said, no you didn't because I saw another person in our little 3 with one.

The reason we didn't tell F about the bunnies was 1. because she would want to join and 2. we didn't want to hurt her feelings. That is what H said to F when F texted H about it.

I bet this is so confusing for you and I am sorry I just need to write it out to make it clear for me.

Feel free to read it again if you want!

So, we don't like F and we don't want to hang out with her because she I boring and doesn't have he own personality. The person who didn't do the secret Easter bunny with the eggs said we should give her a second chance because it is the last term until Year 10 which is proper GCSE's and we shouldn't have drama.

But I have an argument to contradict that, many actually.

I don't have to hang out with someone I don't like, do I?

But because she is in our "group" we have to look after her and if we ditch her people wouldn't like us because they would think we were mean for leaving her out. We have given her more than second chances over the past year and I don't want to give her more.

Adding to that, her closes friend who she always hangs out with (she was on of the 5 earlier) has moved groups so F is even more alone now than ever.

And we are stuck with her.

Hope you have read all of this because I need help.

What is your opinion on all of this?

I kind of went to I have nothing to say to Easter to drama real fast so I kind of apologize for that.

It is just what has happened since I have posted.

Hope your all well and sorry for not posting in a while.

Help!

Bebeabout, signing out xxx

Let down

Today, 20th March 2015, there was a Solar eclipse happening and it mainly effected Europe. For people who don't know what a Solar eclipse is, it is where the moon and sun line up so the sun is blocked by the moon.

It was meant to have the main effect at around 9:30am

And I emphasis the meant to part.

Because it was rubbish.

It was meant to turn really dark and cold (it was blimming cold I tell you!) but, it only dimmed down a bit.

As well as that, one of our science teachers was the cutest thing. Right, he had his telescope out and equipment and temperature checker thingies and stuff like that. His smile never went off his face! it was so adorable! He was speaking all sciencey and posh and...it was a let down. He even said it himself.

The main thing that I think (and the cute teacher) thinks didn't work was the weather. It was so cloudy u couldn't even see the sun, let alone the eclipse. It would have been darker, better and easier to see if it wasn't for the dam clouds.

Curse you clouds!

But really, it was like nothing, and the news and everything said it would be great.

I swear weather reporters on the news always gets things wrong?

They do though, don't they?

I just want to say, sorry for not posting in a while, been obsessed with this game on my computer.

And my typing has really been awful.

So, question time

Did you see the Solar eclipse? Do you agree with my (and my teacher's) verdict of it?

I would really like one of you guys these days to answer my question, so comment answers.

One more thing.

Insurgent (the second book in the Divergent series) came out in cinema the other day and I am watching t tomorrow and I am so excited it is unreal! I LOVE Divergent! #fangirling

Hope your all well, speak to you soon!

Bebeabout, signing out xx

#lol

This blog is literally going to be full of quirky junk.

This is only because I am bored.

And I have some funny stuff to share with you.

So basically, at my Grammar school, there have been these girls on twitter that have made a new account. This account was made to make fun of the teachers in our school. Some of them were photos but most were just comments.

But God were they funny.

They were rude, like really rude, but it was so much better and funnier! It made fun of their name, voice and all of that!

I know you might thing that is so rude and horrid.

It is.

But just imagine your teachers (or old school teachers) getting all these comments made about them . You might have little jokes with your friends about them but imagine if it was put online!

It was the funniest!

I really want to show you them but that would a) really rude b) I would probably get into trouble for posting them again and c) It would show their identity and my school, which isn't good.

If you want to know about the girls that set up the twitter account, they got found out by the head teacher and he read all of them and the all got excluded until June and their parents were with them...so, not so good for them.

But hell was it funny.

And, even better, my history teacher had a photo put on their of him with a MacDonald joke on the caption. He is awesome and he teachers 2 of the girls that had the account. So when the girls come back he is going to make comments to them like,

"You making a meal out of that?"

"Do you want that large?"

And it will be so funny! You don't even know.

There are loads more jokes were that come from as well.

On the subject of jokes, I have just had a recent phone update. I have a Nokia phone and in the new update, it has this ting called Cortana (Like Siri for IPhones). She is awesome. But the best part of her is her jokes They are so bad, like terrible but that makes them funny. I will give you a few.

I wondered why the baseball was getting bigger. Then it hit me.

Have you heard of the band named 1023 megabytes? Of course not, they haven't made it to a gig yet.

Two antennas got married. The ceremony dragged on, but the reception was excellent.

The past, the present and the future walked into a bar. It was tense.

You see what I mean when I say they were so bad they were funny. My favourite is the first one personally. She has loads more jokes by the way.

Anyway, I think I have talked a lot today, so here is the question

Why do seagulls fly over the sea?

Because if they flew over the bay, they'd be bagels

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The Versatile Awards! Woo!

I have been nominated for another award! Can you believe it! My blog isn't that good for awards I mean, seriously!

Anyway, here I am writing a blog for the Versatile Awards listening to Anaconda by Nicki Minaj.

I want to thank Chloe Dream for nominating me for this award and I really appreciate it, like really.

Ok, so here are the boring rules:

• Thank the blogger who nominated you for the award
• Tell the readers 7 cool facts about yourself
• Finally, nominate 5-15 other bloggers for this awesome award.

So, here are the 7 cool facts about myself:

1. I love writing books, not just reading them, I like writing them about what I would like to read. I normally don't get past 5 or 6 chapters in the book, but at least I try!
2. My favourite t-shirt is so unfashionable but is so comfortable. Out of all the fashionable clothes, my baggy, blue t-shirt with New York written on it has to be my favourite. I am more comfortable than fashionable. Although I hate joggers and love jeans...
3. I have never had a boyfriend. At age 13 that is terrible. But it is even worse that no one has never asked me out. My theory is it is not because I am ugly and no one likes me, it is because I am so pretty, they are afraid to ask me out. Theory proved right!
4. My celebrity crush is Theo James. He is so perfect, his face has been crafted by angels. I have a Divergent poster with him on my wall and my Divergent calendar features just him on May, my birthday month! He is beautiful. He is an American actor who stars Four in Divergent btw. Perfect
5. I wake up at 6:50am on school days and leave my house at around 7:45. Random weird fact, not so cool though. I normally wake up the same time at weekends to though, because I got to bed at like 9! Ha!
6. I have light brown hair and big dark brown blue eyes. My face is so weird and round though, ugh, I don't like my round face. I have nice red lips though...
7. I get scared so easily. If someone is standing in the dark and I walk out my room, I scream at the top of my voice. I if someone comes up behind me and says "boo!", I scream so load. Even a load noise scares me. I get it from my mum, like so many things, she is soooo much more worse than me though! So funny!

I found that really hard, thinking of 7 decent facts, some of them are blabble though so apologies now you have read them!

I nominate for the award:

Ella
Peachy Please...
Vicky
Just Another Girl
Elsa
Emily
Beth
Anne
Star Girl

Really hoped you liked reading my 7 "cool" facts. Posting another random blog soon so stay on me!

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The Liebster Awards (Again!)

Funnily enough, I have been nominated for the Liebster Awards again! I will definitely do it again because I can and because I really want to so thank you Ella for nominating me again and don't think that I am doing this because I have to, because I don't!

Here are the rules:

•  Thank the person who nominated you and post a link to their blog on your blog.
•  Display the Liebster Award badge on your blog 
• Answer 11 questions about yourself which will be provided to you by the person who nominated you
• Nominate 4 - 11 blogs that you feel deserve the award and who have less that 200 followers 
• Create a list of questions for the blogger to answer
• List these rules in your post and inform the people/ blogs that you nominated that they have been nominated for the Liebster award and provide a link to your post so they can learn all about it.

Ok, so here are the questions and my answers

What is your favourite quote?
My favourite quote has to be my quote from my blog Motivation, that is:
"Shoot for the moon, even if you miss, you'll land among the stars."
I find this quote awesome because I is about embracing your destiny and fulfilling your goal which is, what I think, life is about.

Who or what made/inspired you to blog?
A few bloggers inspired me but the thing that most inspired me, or shall I say book, was Girl Online by Zoe Sugg which is rated my 4th favourite book in my blog Top 5 of my life. It is awesome, you should read it.

What is your dream job?
I think my dream job would be something easy like a really famous TV presented where you earn loads of money I would also love to be a singer and dancer but, who doesn't, really?!

If you could move to any part of the world right now, where would it be and why?
I would love to move to Australia because it is so pretty and I love their accent and apparently there are loads of really fit boys there so...that is my main reason!

What's your favourite thing to do on a cold rainy day?
I love snuggling up with a book or writing a blog. Being warm and cosy is my number 1 priority on those days!
Are you more of a morning or night person?
I go to bed at latest 10 o'clock, even on weekends which my friends think is weird. the latest I wake up is like 9, but I can't go to bed any later and wake up any later, funnily enough, I have just had a nap because I am so tired!

What is your dream job?
Ok...you have already said this question, so lets go wacky!
A bubble physicist (yes, that is a real thing)!!!

If you had to/could dye your hair, what colour would you dye it?
I love ginger people! You don't even know! I want ginger hair! But I don't think I would suite me so I would go for a reddy-brown kind of colour, I would love that. or blonde...I don't know...a light blonde, kind of browny-blonde, that would be nice.

If you could go back in time, what would you change in your life and why?
I don't know, I am only 13 so I haven't done anything so bad in my life that I want to change yet. I would probably go back to when I was in Year 4 and my older brother was in year 6 so I could persuade my mum to appeal my older brother into the grammar school that I go to know because I know that I her biggest regret of all.

What is your favourite lipgloss/lip balm?
I love BabyLip. My friends know me as the BabyLip girl!

Who was the last person to make you laugh?
Probably my friend with wild curly hair! She took me home from school today and we were talking about McBusted because she is obsessed.

Ok, so now for the bit I stuggle with since like, everyone has done this award! The nominees
Zsofia
Emma
Maria
Santie

I have no idea who these people I nominated are but I nominated them and they stick by the rules!
Hope you enjoyed my Liebster Awards post and please look at the people I nominated and try to read their blogs, emphasising the TRY!

Hope you bog reader are awesome (well you are so there is no need to worry)!

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Top 5 of my life

When I was in primary school, I never read. When I say never, I mean like one book every year. Now I know the reason why, because I couldn't find a book I thought was worth the time.

Christmas 2013 I got a kindle and from then on, I have read books everyday. Because I could find a book I thought was worth the time.

Now reading is like my life

But now that I have read literally hundreds of books, I thought I would tell you and recommend my top 5 books or series of books. My top 5 of my life.

5

Fall For You
Cecilia Gray

This book was one of he first book I read when I had my kindle. It is in The Jane Austen Academy series and it is book 1 but the other books are about her friends which I haven't read because they seemed less interesting to me. The main character, Lizzie, has been at this Jane Austen boarding school for a while and with a new headmistress in this year, things change. The change that everyone notices is it is now a mixed school instead of an all girls school. Lizzie is fighting for her friendship with her best friend from the start of the book, she has nowhere else to turn but to Dante, a guy with obviously thinks he's way too good for Lizzie. And Lizzie knows Dante is a snob with a gift for pressing her buttons. Lizzie finds out that Dante has secrets. But Lizzie can't seam to leave those secrets alone, no matter how hard she tries.

This book is gripping from start to finish with cute parts, funny parts and parts which put you on the edge of your seat. I definitely recommend you read this book and this is why is in my number 5 in my favourite books.

4

Girl Online
Zoe Sugg

This book is Zoella's first novel and rates highly on my book list because this was the main thing that inspired me to do the same thing Penny, the main character, does for a hobby, blogging. Penny's life is being taken over by her regular panic attacks and when her parents get offered to do a month's job in New York, they jump t the opportunity. Their she meets Noah, a gorgeous, guitar-strumming American. Penny falls in love with him and expresses every little detail of it in her blog. But Noah has a secret too, one that will ruin Penny's blog cover, and her friendship, forever.

This book was awesome ad I got it for 2014 Christmas and all I can say is, thank you Father Christmas. Definitely worth a spot in my top 5 favourite books.

3

Worst Impressions
K.LBrady

This book is from the 2010 Indie Book Award Winner for Multicultural Fiction (really?) and the Third Place Grand Prize Winner for The Best Fiction of 2010. Liz Bennett loves basketball and is a clever tomboy. She dresses down and stays low in her high school and doesn't get involved in gossip. With weird family (especially the mother, trust me, she is bonkers!) she is dealing with enough drama to last a lifetime. A rich new family have moved in down their road and their father is an ex-football player (I think, or basketball, I don't know!). Liz has found herself someone from school giving her flirty looks but on of the new boys, Darcell, keeps looking at her and giving her the mouth. But the question is, who really excepts her for who she really is?

The characters in this book are amazing and from the start you have no idea how the relationships go if you got told the ending. it all works so well and was amazing and is why it is my strong 3rd favourite book.

2

Divergent
Veronica Roth

This is an obvious book for teenage girls to choose and it has loads of action and romance. It is set in the future after a big war has happened and people have been in a city which is surrounded by a big wall. Their founder built the wall to keep them safe and divided them into five groups, factions to keep the peace. Betrice Prior, is in Abnegation, the selfless faction but doesn't feel like she belongs in their. When she take the test to tell her who she is, she find the results shocking. Choosing a faction means loosing her family. Along the way, she finds out that a war is coming. But she has to keep her secret hidden from everyone else. Nobody else knows, apart form her instructor, Four.

I love this book so much and love Four in it, he is amazing. Love he romance, characters and the place and era it is set. Awesome from start to finish. It has been made into an amazing film and have poster up on my wall of t. Very strong 2nd place in my favourite book list.

1

The Wishes series
G.J.Walker-Smith

OMG! These books are EPIC! There are5 main books in the series with a 2.5 and 4.5 about other people very close to the main character. Charlie Blake is the main character and is the best main character EVER and is awesome and her brother is awesome. I can't really tell you about the books without ruining them but I will try. Charlie lives in Pipers Cove wit is a very very very small town in Australia with 11 roads. Her brother, Alex, owns a café which helps them survive as they don't have a mum or dad. Charlie's French teacher, Miss Decaire, has a cousin coming over for a couple of months. When they meet in a down poor of rain, Adam falls in love with her then. After weeks of messing around and cheekiness, a spark flicks. But will Charlie ever see Adam again when he goes back to America to live his normal life? They are so far away and have different dreams that they don't believe it is possible, but they try over the first 3 books.

The 4th book is about Adam's brother, Ryan who is boos and is queen and has so much Swag you don't even know!!!! I would read the books just for him! The fifth book is mainly about Charlie's mother but has loads of other details which I can't ell you other wise it will spoil it.
These books I have read many of times and will keep reading them. I definitely recommend them because it is so cute and adorable and I know I have said the charters are great in other book but they are the best in these ones so please, please read these series of books. They are more than awesome and more than deserve 1st place in my favourite books list.

I really hope you enjoyed this blog and I really hope that you read The Wishes series because it is awesome.

No question this time because can't think of one.

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Wild Phases

The other day, me and one of my friends from school were going through wild phases in music that we remember having.

There was so many.

Jedward.

JLS

But mine was the all time best.

Alexandra Burke.

You might be there like, who the hell is she (I don't mind if you don't know her because I don't like her any more) but she was the winner of the Xfactor in 2009 I think. When she was in the Xfactor everyone loved her and I was there like,

"I hate her guts"

No, really, I didn't like her which just made this phase even wilder! I don't know when I liked her I just did and then I listened to her CD every day. My friend downloaded her songs on her ipod so I could listen to them and she like,

"What is this rubbish"

She was into Jedward at the time so she couldn't really say anything but, really, it wasn't that good.

So, I lead onto my question of the blog.

Have you had any wild phases in music? Embarrassing or still really love them?

I would love to hear about all of your wild phases like mine.

Just comment anything.

Hope you guys are all well.

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No sympathy please!

When people say that they have no money and they have money problems it really annoys me.

One because they are holding a phone and (in my case) go to a grammar school with £150 worth of school clothes

And second because I am in that terrible postion

Today I realised how far me and my family are in debt. My family have been in debt for ages but still somewhere found the money for loads of xmas presents and expensive birthday gifts (which I am most grateful for). But today, for lunch, my mum, who is my idol and best friend, had to miss out on because she wanted her children and husband to have the small amounts of food in the house. She also skipped dinner last night.

This morning, Saturday, I go to a dance class in the morning which my parents pay for. It is under £5 every time you go and you bring the money and pay each time. Today I couldn't go because my family doesn't have £5 to spare.

My parents are so in debt that they are having to borough money off of me and my 2 brothers which surely isn't right.

I am not writing this blog to complain about my parents because they live for us. I am not asking for your sympathy either (as the title suggests)

I just needed to express.

This has been really depressing so I am going to end with a random question.

Why do you blog?

I blog for the reason to express my feelings

Like now, when needed.

Please answer because I would love to know.

Any questions just ask

bebeabout100.blogspot.co.uk

Bebeabout, signing out xx

P.S Happy Valentines day! Don't have a valentine so sitting here writing this. Almost had one though as seen in Love Struck ! xx

Love Struck

You don't even know how love struck I feel right now.

It is unbelievable!

And so unexpected.

And unlikely.

But it happened.

So here is the story.

My friend (You remember Elizabeth, from my post Too Young?) text me to see if she wanted me to walk her dog with her. I did only because I was bored and I haven't seen her in a week or so. So we went out to our local park and the field thing next to it. We were in the field when her dog went crazy, only because there were two other dogs there. They were big, golden colours and so cute. Elizabeth's dog and the other two dogs went to each other and I looked at the owner of the two dogs.

Oh My Gosh.

Most people would of said he was alright and not that good but I found him as cute as hell! He was tall, taller than me which is a first considering I am very tall for a 13 year old girl, and he had brown messy but neat hair. I went into a daze (which really annoyed me) so I didn't take in what he was wearing or his eye colour or anything else about him, all I knew was that he was kind because he seemed shy (not a bad shy but not loud, like a cute kind of boy) and he smiled at me.

Yes smiled.

And I smiled back.

I pulled the dog away because my heart was beating a million miles per hour and if I didn't get away quickly then I would probably die! And I walked away with Elisabeth and I went,

"That guy was so cute!"

And she went,

"He was fat"

I was offended because (no offence to fat people) I wouldn't go into a daze over an overweight person. So I went,

"He isn't fat, he wasn't skinny or muscly, which I like, he has a bit of small amount of fat here and there, like me, but that doesn't mean he was fat. It just means he is well fed!"

She was going on about other stuff but couldn't get him out of my head. And I still can't now.

Then...

We were deciding which way to go out of a three way path, one forward, one right and one left. Elizabeth went forward and I looked right and I saw him. His cute dogs were circling him and he was feeding them and he looked so cute. So I went,

"Or do you want to go that way and pass the cute guy?"

She went that way to the cute guy and my heart beat went from normal to Ferrari fast in a millisecond. I walked up to her and said,

"Talk to me, pretend we are talking!"

She finished a story that she was saying earlier while we pasted the cute guy who was putting his dogs on his leads (one pink and one blue I noticed!). And we went home.

I was so annoyed at myself that I didn't take any of him in, or flirt with him for that matter.

So

Me and Elizabeth have a plan (well me really), next Sunday at exactly the same time we are going to walk her dog and see if we see the cute guy again! I wanted to go in Valentines day (which is next Saturday) but she is busy.

I can't wait to see him again, if I do that is. I have no idea who he is but...all relationships have to start off somewhere.

So, I need your advice.

Help! What shall I do?

I need help for next time I see him on what to do.

I will post when I see him again, if I do!

Hope you are as excited as me!

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Bebeabout, signing out xx

The Liebster Awards

I have been reading about these types of posts for ages, ever since I have had blogger and I never thought I I would be nominated for the Liebster Awards, but I have. I was nominated by The Other Dream Girl and I am very grateful.

So, here are the rules :

• Link the blogger that nominated you for the award
• Answer the 11 questions set by said blogger
• Nominate 11 other blogger for the award (I will comment on your most recent post to let you know)
• Create 11 questions for the nominees to answer

So, here goes, answering the questions tat The Other Dream Girls asked!

You're stranded on a desert island - what one makeup essential do you bring?
I would probably mascara because I wear it all the time and I would love to die as pretty as I could!

How would you describe your fashion style in three words?
Not exactly fashionable!

What's your favourite thing to do in your free time?
I love reading and writing books. My books aren't exactly J.K Rowling, but they are books I love to read.

What's your favourite pair of shoes?
I am more of a converse girl but I have these really cute black bots with a little heel! They are adorable!

What's your favourite accessory?
I love small and cute things hat are around your neck. Necklaces!

If you could be amazing at anything - what would it be?
I would love to be amazing at singing because if I am that good, then I could get an awesome career out of it and that has always been my childhood dream.

What's your favourite chocolate/sweet?
Chocoholic coming through! Double Deckers all the way!

Who is your favourite music artist?
Olly Murs makes the best songs! Wrapped up is so awesome

What would your words of advice be to anyone considering starting a blog?
Just go for it! Like I said in my Motivation blog, shoot for the moon and even if you miss, you'll land among the stars

Where would you go on your dream holiday?
My dream holiday is wherever my happiness is (But ideally, a huge cottage in France where I could speak French to everyone!).

Summer or Winter?
This question has haunted me for years but I am more winter than summer. I love the tan of summer but the beach is my nightmare. The winter is just in bed with a hot chocolate reading a book in comfortable clothes...heaven!

Thanks again to The Other Dream Girl for nominating me, truly grateful! And I hope these people feel the same, my nominees: Peachy pleaseee , ItsActuallyElsa , SophieAlice

Tbh, I can't find anyone else who hasn't done this award so I am only doing 3...but you guys have to do 11!

My questions are the following:

1. If you had to have a job were you help people, what would it be?
2. What's your favourite number and why?
3. What one your Weird Fetishes?
4. Who is your celebrity crush?
5. If you were a vegetable, what one would it be?
6. What is your dream girl or boy name?
7. What do you despise?
8. What is one of your guilty pleasures?
9. What is the time on your clock now?
10. What is your dream car?
11. Do you believe in ghosts?

I have loved this post and I would love to hear your comments about my answers.

Speak to you guys soon because I have this massive drama about dream boy I will be posting soon so hang on in there!

Bebeabout, signing out xx

The Evening!

When you were younger (or now, like me!) did you dread this one day which your parents met your teacher or did you look forward to all of the good comments?

The other day was the day of Parents evening.

At my school, you have to go round all of your subject teachers that you want and get a 5 minute appointment with them. Normally they last longer than that and they are behind but, that is the general concept.

Over the years of my secondary school life, I started out super quite. My geography teacher said this to me:

"In Year 7 she always looked frightened and now she is a young lady."

That basically says that I have turned from a shy, scared child to a normal, lough, obnoxious young lady.

This links to my parents evening because I talk a lot mow in class because I have friends to talk to. I was super worried that my teachers would all say this in front of my mum. I have always, from my first ever one in reception, had an outstanding parents evening saying how academic I am and how well behaved I am so if all of my teachers suddenly say I am all talking to much, it just wouldn't be good.

But they didn't. It was only one of my science teachers.

I think I will talk to you about my science appointment to you because it is very amusing (well it is for me!).

I have two teachers one male and female (I will call them Mr and Miss for this blog) and I mad an appointment with Miss. I really like Miss but HATE Mr. Unfortunately for me, Mr was free at the time of my appointment so he joined Miss with mine.

Miss started off the talk saying how well I was doing and I was getting good 80% in tests which I good. She said that last year I struggled in some of the science subjects (because I had her last year as my only science teacher) but this year I am doing much better.

The stupid Mr came in and said:

"Well, it must be physics then (because he teaches physics to us most) because Bebe isn't doing as well in physics as you described in the other sciences Miss. She is doing alright but just needs to do a bit better."

His lessons are the most boring in the world. We, especially, are intelligent girl (because I go to a top grammar school) and are capable of doing work but no, Mr hands out sheet and practically does the work for us. He then explains that experiment for the lesson for 15 minutes which is on the sheet already, I don't listen because it is on the sheet. When we finally get to do the experiment, it is pointless because we already know the outcome, Mr already knows the outcome, every flipping person does but still, we waist our lives doing something that has already been done. We come out of the lesson more confused than when we went in and yeah...the most boring hour of my life.

So, I wasn't surprised that Mr said that. It is just physics...just physics.

Please comment on my question at the start and...anything else really.

Any questions just ask!

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Motavation

I am in a mood, you know, one of those moods.

Were you feel really motivational.

I feel really motivational.

Like I should take up jogging (this will pass in a few minutes and I will think "geese, I won't take up jogging" so don't think I am ill).

And I want to pass my motivation on to you while I am still in the mood.

So:

 



This motivational quote tell me one thing.

Just aim for your biggest goal possible and even if you don't reach it, you will still land somewhere better than you are now, somewhere where maybe, you could aim for your goal again.

So go on, aim high for your goal whether it is being a doctor, traveling around the world or even taking up jogging just do it!

Knowing me, if I take up jogging, I will land among the stars instead of the moon but, at least I have accomplished something.

Have you ever shot for the moon before? Did you reach it or land among the stars? Are you going to aim for the moon now?

I would love to hear your responses to my questions.

Especially the last one. To see if any of you are in one of those moods.

Hope your all well and smiling and keep reading bebeabout100.blogspot.co.uk !

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Weird Fetishes

Most normal girls my age like subjects like art or drama or music. It is a subject that you don't have to write essays about or work out equations or explain why that acid turns into an alkali!

But I am different.

If you had read my profile you would know what my favourite subject is and on my profile, it has a little "don't judge!" in bracket next to it so please don't!

Maths

When I tell my school "friends" this (friends is in inverted commas because of one of my previous posts Teenage Girls These Days!), they think I am so weird and they don't understand why.

Well...

Neither do I!

I would tell you if I knew why I love maths so much but I don't.

The only reason I can think of it this:

"Because it is the same in every country."

Which is a quote from one of my favourite movies Mean Girls.

Do you have a weird favourite thing? Maybe it is a subject like mine? Or maybe something different?

I would love to hear about your weird fetishes!!!

Keep reading!

Bebeabout, signing out xx

Too Young?

I bet you we all have this one friend like mine.

This friend of mine is Elizabeth (not her real name for anonymous reasons) and she is the only one I told about my blog. I will tell you she is a year younger than me (making her 12) therefor more naïve and lately, she is getting so worked up about one small thing which frankly, I don't think that people should be worrying about at her age.

Boyfriends.

From what she has told me, this boy THE YEAR BELOW HER asked he out and she said yes (of course). I thought it was outrageous. But then, she ignored my advice. She grew very fond of this guy which I don't like and says that she loves him. This annoys me at this stage because of many reasons:

1. He is a year younger than her
2. He is a twat
3. He has no idea how to be a "boyfriend" if you could even call it that
4. She has no idea how stupid he is and the consequences of this in about a weeks time
5. All they do is say hi, giggle and walk away (great relationship)
6. She could do so much better

And of course, like all baby relationships, he says to her that he fancies one of her friends and dumbs her.

Elizabeth cries over and over again and I am just there like...

I told you so.

After I got my point across I suggest that we meet up that weekend so she can get her mind off him because I feel bad Elizabeth. But all she keeps on asking me is, how did you know?

In all of my 13 years, I have never had a boyfriend. And on top of that, I have never had anyone ask me out or vice verser. It is not the normal reasons of weird and ugly (I hope!) it is just all of the boys I have met are that! Not really, I don't know why it is it just it. Yeah, I would like it to change but I am not that fussed...ok I would love to have a boyfriend but I think that age group between 12 and 13 is big and 12 is too young to have a boyfriend. Reasons are only because they are too naïve and it turns into a really silly relationship (like the above)

Did you have a boyfriend once like this? Do you know someone who does? Is 12 too young to be in a relationship?

I would love to here if any of you have been through the same traumatic times as Elizabeth has!

Please comment.

Thank you for reading this totally different blog about Elizabeth and I am sure she will appreciate it too!

Bebeabout, signing out xxx

Teenage Girls These Days!

Teenage girls these days are really spiteful. They talk behind each other back, they judge people and make nasty, rude comments. I can bet that all girls (and most boy tbh) can agree with what I have just said. Not like I am any better of course!

I remember the times when I was in primary school with all of my friends and all we bothered about was being the teacher favourite. We had our skirt down to our knees (we didn't know any different) and, in my primary school, we were the most naïve children possible.

One day, when I came home from school, my mum came running down my road bare feet shouting, "You got in, you got in". Of course I knew what she meant. I took a test to get into my local grammar school and, as you could guess, I got in!

The moment I stepped into that school I was inspired by everything from the size of the school to our head teacher. It was, and still is now, one of my greatest achievements of my life (dramatic but hey!). I went to that school and went into the same class with 2 other friends. They were fine, but I wanted different ones. Ones that were more like me.

As time went on, one of my friends found new ones so I hung onto the other. I was a very unsociable person, very shy so for the first year of my secondary school life it felt like I was being pressured because of my school, and to find friends. I used to cry most day saying how no one liked me, and to this day, I still don't think they did.

I finally found my leash at about the start of Year 8 and now in the middle of Year 9, I feel like I on top of the world...most of the time.

My class is weird, not because we are geeky (because we are not) but because we have "groups". These are friendship groups. When you hear that word you assume that in all of those little groups, everyone likes each other, but they don't.

This leads me onto my point of how teenage girls are really spiteful these days. Because the reason for people friendship groups not liking each other is because they are mean and spiteful and gossip to each other without meaning to about her spots or her science grade and then that leads to not liking them.

I am posting this because it has effected me today. My friendship group consistent of 6 people including me. I am best friends with 2, don't like 1 but pretend I do to everyone, don't like 1 but pretend I don't to her face and like the last 1.

Me and my 2 best friends say that we don't want to be in the same friendship group as some of them. We have tried to ignore them and stuff but, nothing works. She is hung onto me.

I have a feeling that this is the same feeling that one of my friends that I went to this school with feels. That I shouldn't have been around and that I was annoying

Did you/do you have friendship groups in your class? Do you like them? Have you ever felt the same way I felt back in Year 7?

I would love to hear your comments about this.

As well as that, tell your friends about me! I only have a few view and the reason I set this up was so people could hear about me. You never know I might even give one of you a shout out!

Thx for reading,

Bebeabout, signing out xxx

PS: The reason I am not giving names is because my blog profile is anonymous. I might give people fake names, I probably will end up doing so soon!

Start of Something New

You know the song from High School Musical "Start of Something New"?

Well this is it.

My start of something new.

Not in the same way that Toy and Gabrielle mean it. I haven't met somebody or anything!

But it is just as exciting.

I am not going to blab on to you about my interests and hobbies or my problems and school life. I am going to give you a quote:

"Take your pain and turn it into something great. Put your energy towards bettering your life and start something new"

Have you started something new lately? Or perhaps want to?

Comment your answers below

I realise that this has been a very short first blog and you didn't learn much about but, just wait. I will tell you everything.

Bebeabout, signing out xx